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Apparently I pissed her off first but I don't know what I did. No one, including her knows. There was something she had against me pretty much from the get-go and there wasn't anything I could do about it. I tried a "bury the hatchet" conversation with her. She told me I was intimidating and cocky (true and true). I asked her if I had done anything in particular or if there was anything I could change and she said no and that was basically it...

cool. I have some regrets definitely. I hate to say it was editing b/c I think it's bitchmade to do that, but in my case it was pretty egregious. That whole self-destruct thing that you saw was mostly editing. The wine thing, I admit now that it was a huge mistake, but I still maintain that that's not what sent me home. The deuce dropping thing simply was not a big deal at the time (and if you watch the footage you'll see they pieced it together--pay attention to Aras' hat in the shots they use. My brother is an AVID editor and he pointed stuff like that out to me when I told him I didn't remember the deuce dropping scene going down like that.

The producers left out pretty much everything I did that made it look or sound like I knew how to play the social side of the game. I don't claim to be an expert but I'm nowhere near as clueless about the social side of the game as I was portrayed to be.

I don't get the 24 reference. I think that during the 14 or so days I was there, Danielle, Courtney and to a lesser extent Shane (whom I think I may have misread) and Aras were all portrayed as better than they actually were.

I've been told that my exit speech was one of the funniest (spineless little twerps etc), but that no one knew why I was so mad. Everyone says that I played such a non-existent social game they couldn't understand what I was so pissed about. I agree that from the edit I got, it didn't seem like I had a right to be angry about anything since it looks like I self-destructed but that's not how it really went down. I was pissed about stuff that the public never really saw. If I had really acted the way I was portrayed I wouldn't have had any business going out with my guns blazing the way I did...